Internal Detachment

This piece is based on a real‭, ‬vulnerable‭ ‬experience I had when dealing with depersonalisation disorder last year‭, ‬during the height of the pandemic‭. ‬Through digital manipulation I aim to encapsulate the all-encompassing panic‭ ‬and anxiety that comes with a dissociative‭ ‬disorder and the terrifying inability to‭ ‬recognise one's own face and actions‭. ‬By positioning the camera outside of the car window‭, ‬I aim to replicate the‭ ‬‘out of body’‭ ‬experience many‭ ‬sufferers encounter as if one is watching‭ ‬themselves from the third person through‭ ‬a glass screen‭. ‬Feeling mentally detached‭ ‬from your own being is a frightening experience‭, ‬let alone having to mask‭ ‬such internal disruption in order to carry‭ ‬out daily tasks‭. ‬With this work I aim to exhibit that anxious feeling and to personify what it means to question‭ ‬ your own sanity and being‭. ‬